I have spent my entire life feeling like a perpetual onlooker into the normal world of others. I have never been able to figure out how to play my part in anything in life just right. Instead I find myself staring enviously through the looking glass at the surreal perfection that countless people manage to achieve. I recognize that they may have issues of their own, but on the whole, they fit in and manage to move through life as expected.
That’s the story I told myself for many many years.
And that story is utter crap. There’s a huge trick hidden in the image we imagine in that mystical looking glass. Although we perceive a perfection in the life that that they are living from our side of the view, the reality is that there’s one hell of a fierce rabbit hole on the other side of the glass. Absolutely no one walks an easy path regardless of what we see reflected on the surface.
Everyone faces extreme struggles at times, and we are all trying to figure out our part in this unpredictable dance of life. We may not see ourselves as perfect. In truth, we may believe with every fiber of our being that we are shattered, broken, unworthy, and lost. However the times when we are at our lowest are the very moments that forge our characters. That strengthen our souls. That define who we truly are. If we can survive that fire, and I assure you that we can, we will find our way and discover our true purpose.
I write these words to ask you to please always hold on when all you really want to do is to let go. I am sitting right next to you on this emotional roller coaster, and I need you by my side, too. We are never alone in this journey, and we serve as each other’s lifelines when needed. We are amazing and precious creatures, and our being here is no accident. Even if we have never met, I can assure you that my life is better because you are in it.
Embrace all of the colors that make up the the incredible person you are. Understand that it fantastically awesome that you are different from everyone else around you and celebrate that. Keep the faith. Never lose hope. And just keep holding on. Always.
Much love to you. Jo